December 2010
my last angry post of 2010, it's a nicki style rap...
Whatever happened to the human race?
All everybody do is try to save face
No one can muster up a little grace
Bitch, please, I’m gonna put you back in your place
You’re a little baby, think you mature
March that ass straight right out the back door
You proved all the things I said, thought, and what for?
So you could look good in front of your whores
No one is impressed by your big ass...
day 8 - ten things you’d like to say to ten...
1. either take my advice more, or stop complaining when you don’t get what you want.
2. you’re an idiot. you are not getting younger and you need something good in your life now that you’ve thrown away everything else.
3. i’m not who you think i am but i think about you every day and every time i wrong you i punish myself.
4. i was going to buy you flowers and dinner,...
ask me some questions or leave me some nice...
day 7- talk about your idol and how they...
hmm i have to think very hard about this. i don’t have an idol, i have a huge group of men and women who inspire me to be myself, to be creative, and who make me feel like the sky is the limit. they are authors, musicians, directors and actors, etc. and of course family members and friends are inspiring as well. but as for an idol? i can’t really think of one person that sticks out...
day 6 - your all time favorite movie
i want to say that my favorite movie is like some highly intellectual masterpiece. i have two. Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist, and Garden State. since the former is a book originally, and the latter is not, i will talk about the latter for a moment. and by talk, i mean ramble.
made in 2004, it was written and directed by the love of my life, zach braff, and the other love of my life...
weirdoooo
“hey..”-rich
“hey whats up?”-me
“nothing, just got home. you?”
“getting ready for the night.”
“oh cool. i dont know why i’m texting you. i just thought i’d say hey.”
if you don’t know why youre texting me then don’t text me? simple as that. i know why you are texting me, you miss me. but if you dont want to...
2 days when i told you i don’t feel the same and i don’t want to pursue a ‘thing’ with you i meant every word, and now i am so glad i said that because less than 24 hours later you made your stupid facebook status claiming some girl you are friends with is “bootyful.” this proves exactly what we argued over, and what you said i was wrong about- you are not...
if you go to sleep, and have a dream, and while...
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day 5 - discuss your feelings on the word “love”...
my thoughts on love keep evolving.
when you’re a young girl you watch disney movies and think that love is submission, doing anything to get the prince.
when you’re in gradeschool you know that there’s the way you love your parents and the way you will love someone thats not your parents, and those two loves are completely different.
when you’re in highschool you love...
“Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams....”
– Lady Gaga (via notyourheart)
day 4 - your most significant childhood memory
i have been mulling this one over. i have mostly random and seemingly insignificant memories, until probably around age 11. i know that that’s weird. i’m starting to think there was a trauma in my early life that i can’t remember. no, seriously.
but right now, i’d have to say the most significant memory i can think of is when i was 9. i was going into 5th grade, i was on...
it's really fucking annoying when...
…someone picks and chooses what parts of the text message they want to acknowledge, and then attack you for it. i didn’t fucking say i don’t want to talk to you anymore, but you are really cutting it close.
…people steal your shit. dear little sister, i’m getting a lock. good luck trying to take crap be it clothes, makeup, or postits. yes, post-its. those things are...
alanis morissette had her baby on christmas day,...
day 3 - your thoughts on religon
hmm… i am a spiritual lady. i believe in a higher power. i’ve been on all sides of religion. when i was a child from kindergarten to 3rd grade i attended a private catholic school because the public schools weren’t accepting more kids. living in queens was awesome haha (no sarcasm!). i think there may be more than one god sometimes. i believe in the Shekinah. i love to learn...
inspired by married to the mob, i decided to make...
a) always respect women. if you’re a woman or a man who jokes about rape then you are not for me, end of story. actually, you should respect everyone.
b) be ambitious. i want someone who has a dream or two or a thousand and has a plan. its nice to sit around all day and la la la but one day we will be the adults of the world and i want to know we will be supporting each OTHER not just me...
it’s your life, but you don’t really have one. you’re obsessed with the gym. it’s all you talk about, it’s the one place you go. you work your body to it’s limits and the results are quite unattractive. you basically are a pair of arms and a smooshy head.
you are always asking me why i think you are too young for me, when age is just a number. prime example:...
day 2 - your thoughts on death
i am okay with death. when you’ve been through certain things like i have, you learn to accept it. i have almost brought death upon myself, and although i hope it never comes to that again, i know i will one day die by some other force and that is ok.
whether i die tonight in my sleep or die when i am 100, i will not have achieved everything i want to achieve. i have such a huge list...
day 1 - your favorite picture of yourself and one...
my favorite photograph of myself hasn’t been taken yet. everyone has all of these great pictures of themselves, i know a lot of amateur models and photographers and just all around beautiful people. but no one takes good pictures of me because i used to not let them take pictures at all. and i don’t think i am ugly, but i think i am horribly unphotogenic.
as for a fact for each year...
i guess i will do this, but i know i will give up...
day 1 - your favorite picture of yourself and one interesting fact for every year you’ve been alive
day 2 - your thoughts on death
day 3 - your thoughts on religon
day 4 - your most significant childhood memory
day 5 - discuss your feelings on the word “love” and the way it’s used in today
day 6 - your all time favorite movie
day 7- talk about your idol and how they influence you
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by the way, my christmas is going very well and i...
this year, last year, next year, new year :)
a week from today it will be new years day… 2011. and although i am a little wary of odd numbers, 2009 was better to me than 2010. so i will forgive the ‘11 (especially because i turn 21 february 1st!)
turning 21, on february 1st, will be the real start to my new year. every year on my birthday i reflect on who i was, who i am, and who i want to be. lately the 3 have been mixing quite...
i need a kiss that awakens my soul and steals my breath for days and makes my knees tremble and my lips shake and my eyes tear and my heart thump and my clit clap. oh yes i said it.
merry christmas
this girl blogs everything i am thinking. →
“I just embrace all people of all lifestyles and I don’t tell them they are bad...”
– Nicki Minaj (via notyourheart)
“Feminism is not a dirty word, it does not mean you hate men, it does not mean...”
– Kate Nash (via belluslatina)
feminism; what it means to me
to me, feminism is about equality; it’s not about tearing men down or putting women 100 stories above them. feminism gets a bad reputation because of all of the people who go to extremes for it. but every single cause has it’s extremities and its mediums. i think, if you’re a woman, and you don’t identify as a feminist because you see all of the ridiculous, hypocritical,...
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you asked me today if i’m mad at you. no, i’m not mad at you, you’re just a different person than i thought you were. you want to play the games. be mean to me, make me mad, then i say something bitchy and you’re wondering why i’m being so awful. so now i text you less. i don’t take your bs. and now you want it worse than before. you’re up my ass, trying...
“There are certain emotions in your body that not even your best friend can...”
– Björk via letsgobananas. (via tobia)
my sentiments exactly
things i intend on doing over break when i am not...
1) draw/paint/color/whatever. not for it to be perfect, not to impress anyone, but just to feel happy.
2) write!! i keep not working on my story, i keep not writing poems, i post on here and whatnot but i need to WRITE.
3) smoke a big fat blunt when emily comes home
4) get drunk, once or twice no more no less. who am i kidding? i probably won’t achieve this goal. i never drink. BUT it...
i promised emily i'd write my dreams here for her...
i am with my dad in a house that is not ours. its a fortress. i see a portrait of two people i know from high school, in medieval clothing holding a baby. in real life these people have two babies together. yes they are our age. so anywho i soon discover i am in their castle. why do they have a castle? they are part of an ancient prophecy. how do i know this? i have peaked into their pensieve....
they say you know when you know,
i don’t know.
katyperrynotlikethemovies.
so last night i had a dream that 01 was a vampire and he owned a Hot Topic which was in the basement of an old house, across the street from a shut-down iHop and my job was to be the hostess at Hot Topic to make it look like it was iHop’s new location. i could read minds like Sookie Stackhouse and i felt so bad for these 3 kids that were being lured down there… it was so busy i figured...
oh, and ps
i love that we are wasting time on this weed thing still. just legalize it!!! honestly, people are doing it anyway, and taking time out to punish people for it is ridiculous. no one is going to die from a little bit of weed. when i have my own house, you best believe there will be some smoking going on there, and no one is going to walk in my door and tell me no. if cigarettes are legal, then weed...
i don't expect you to agree, and if you don't want...
i’m very excited that the nightmare of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell is over. it’s a giant victory for so many people. but i have some thoughts. for one, i wouldn’t enter the military. but LETS SAY I DO. and as a bisexual female, i could very well develop feelings for another woman there. now, as someone who is serving my country, i am showing my love for this country. now...
can't think of anything clever. story of my life.
in about 2 mins i went from laughing and singing along to the radio, to saying “i need to get home right now.” that was 6pm yesterday and i’ve pretty much been in bed ever since. sleeping. i threw up, which i hate. in 24 hours i have eaten jello (around 2 pm, and it didnt sit well in my stomach, so i was afraid to eat again) and now some toast (we’ll see). i’d...
i heart new york
my favorite books and movies take place in new york. sex and the city, nick and nora’s infinite playlist… the greatest songs are written about NY, some of the hottest spots of the world are here. and yet… one day i’ll probably leave. i dream of living in paris for a while, hopping the train to london. i’m moving to california. i dont know when, but i am, hopefully...
today: school, and then bnty, and then jen.
tomorrow (thursday) : class, a final, work 6 to 12:30 or 1 am =\
friday: GOOD NEWS: no work. BAD NEWS: 7+ loads of laundry, and i WISH i was exaggerating when i say that.
saturday & sunday: took off of work but didn’t get it. soooo i will be slaving at kohls for those 2 nights. and unfortunately i can’t say fuck it and call out...
if i could pull it off, i'd do this
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